So a lot has happened since I was last able to write. My last few posts were focused on my anxiety about my future. I didn’t know where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do. Don’t get me wrong. The unknown still scares the daylights out of me. However, I’m grateful to say that I have been offered a job following my completion of my Masters. I will be staying in Arizona for at least a few more years. I know that I am secure in that. I know people here and will have a community to support me through this transition in my life. I haven’t stopped going to school since I started in kindergarten but I’ve been in college my entirety of my adult life so far. It’s going to be strange to not be thinking about homework assignments, tests, papers and going to class. I’m going to be working full time for the first time ever. It’s different and I’m going straight in. I’m not sure I’m fully prepared but I don’t really have a choice.
Speaking of work, I got a job! That’s awesome. Now, I have changed my career goals/dreams/prospects like 3 or 4 times at this point since being in college. In May, I’ll graduate with my Masters in Education in Higher Education. And guess what? I’m moving fields again!! I’m moving to a sales type role in a educational tech company. It’s very different for me but I think it is necessary for me to make this change. In my last few months as a graduate part time intern, I realized that I’m not ready to be a full time staff member here working with students. I’m only a few years older and I still have a lot of learning to do myself. I need a change in scenery. I’ve been getting overwhelmed in situations at work and I’m having difficulty advising students when I’m so lost in my own life. I think for me to work with students in an advisory or supervisory role, I need to have a solid foundation for myself. To do that, I need to move into different positions and roles where I can learn how to make an impact. I need to learn how to talk with people and how to get them to listen to me. I need to be confident in myself and what I want to give to the world. I don’t have that yet but I will. I just need time. So I’m excited to move into something different. I think having a breadth of skills from different experiences is always a valuable thing. It’s good to learn how to be comfortable in uncomfortable situations. Adaptability is key in surviving in today’s society and I need to adapt to new things.
I’m excited for what the future holds but in all honesty, I just want to be done with school. It’s time for me to try something new and go out and be an adult. So I will see you in the next chapter.