Hello everyone! I know it has been quite a while. I had a pretty busy last few weeks as I was finishing up the semester. I wanted to just write a little about what has been going on in my life and how my mental health is been. After Thanksgiving break, I went back to work and classes feeling refreshed but that ended pretty quickly. I had a lot of assignments to finish up and I was just feeling unmotivated. It was a lot to deal with and I had absolutely no motivation. I would sit down to write my papers and just stare at the screen. I had a ton of energy early October and then I just lost it. I was so confused. But I made it through. It was kind of difficult to push through. I also had a lot of struggles with work and dealing with people. I am feeling kind of stuck and concerned about what is next for me. I will finish my program in May and need to find a job. This makes me absolutely anxious out of my mind.
So following that, guess what. I have had more panic attacks this month than I have had this year. It has not been easy for me to deal with. I haven’t been able to do my relaxing things that help me move past anxiety. It just has been a lot to deal with. Thankfully, I have a very good friend who has been there for me through a lot of this so I was really grateful to have a support system through a lot of this. We actually went to Dear Evan Hansen together a few days ago which I want to do a full post on later but it was fantastic. Mental health has just been a struggle for me over the past few weeks. I am hoping that I am going to work through all of this while I have a break from classes.
So yeah, that’s just like word vomit of basically what has been going on in my life. I am kind of disappointed that I haven’t been keeping up with this but I know that this can not be an added stress in my life. This is a creative outlet for me to get my thoughts out of my head. So, here’s to hoping I can find some motivation and inspiration to write about to help me relax.