Let me tell you: I’m so happy football is back

It may surprise you that I am a big college football fan. Well, I’m a very big Sun Devil football fan, aka my alma mater. I love the energy of being in the stadium, especially in the student section where it’s absolutely insane. I get into it. But it wasn’t always this way so let me tell you how it all started.

I grew up in a place where we didn’t have football. I never understood the hype of having school spirit and going to games and everything that went with it. So, when I moved to Arizona, I was so excited to have that experience. I knew that this was something that I needed to do and I did. I would get to the stadium an hour early to watch the team warm up and make sure I didn’t miss a single minute of the kick off and game. My first game was overwhelming but honestly, it was one of the greatest experiences because I felt a part of something. I had moved so far away from everything I have ever know and I was terrified. At the game, everyone around me was cheering and high fiving when we scored and it was the best. I began to think that I could be at home at ASU. So I became obsessed. Now this was 2013 when our team was actually pretty good. I learned all the players and would call them out by name when I was at the game. I grew to love it so much. The energy of being in that stadium during an amazing game has not been replicated for me. We made it to the PAC 12 Championship and I was pumped. We didn’t win (boo Stanford), but it was an incredible first season for me. I spent the off season following recruitment and NFL draft and I actually got to meet our coach (at the time) and one of my favorite players. It was incredible.

So the next few years, I started dealing heavily with my depression and anxiety. However, one thing that didn’t change was the love and spirit I would bring for my boys on the field. Sun Devil Stadium was one of my favorite places to be. I got to just forget what was going on in my life and focus in. And let me tell you, I was focused in. I think I lost my voice pretty much every game and I had absolutely no regrets. I would stand the entire time and scream with whoever was around me. I was a part of something that was so much bigger than myself. I got to be a part of promoting the team and spirit on campus and allowed me some pretty sick opportunities. I spent a whole game on the field once and I pretty much cried the entire time. No words could describe how much I LOVE ASU football, even when we aren’t doing so well. And no one could take away my love for our quarterback, Taylor Kelly. I cried during his last game and I met him after and cried again. It sounds really weird and borderline creepy, which it definitely is. I also had a friend who worked with the spirit squad of ASU and egged on my obsession by giving me some equipment that he got and getting a video of the following year’s quarterback, Mike Bercovici, saying he loved me.

Now, it’s been about 2 years since I’ve been to a game because I don’t get free tickets anymore. But that does not mean my obsession has gone down any less. We’ve had a lot of changes in players, coaches and tons of others so it has changed a lot. But I still follow my day ones: TK, Berco, Jordan, DJ, Jalen, Zane and a ton of others. I try to watch every game and read and watch the news and highlights. I still follow everything as best as I can. Now, I don’t get the energy rush that I had in the stadium, but I’ve grown up. I loved football games but sometimes it can get overwhelming with all of the people and heat and craziness. So, as I have been in high anxiety places over the past few years, I like watching at home or with friends at a bar. I can be in my own home and comfort and scream at the tv. I still get to take that 3 to 4 hours to forget about life and really root for my boys.

So yeah, I am ecstatic that Sun Devil Football is back to get back the energy. Go Devils! Oh and bring on rivalry week. Just watch out Arizona. We coming for you.

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