I am about to begin my second year of grad school, meaning I will have my Masters in May if all goes according to plan. This year has brought a lot of changing and learning as I am in a transition of my life. I am living by myself for the first time, got a dog, got a car and am trying to work on learning to live my best life as someone with mental health issues. So as I go into this last chapter of education in my life (for the moment), I wanted to think about what I want to accomplish this next year. So, the way I make big life goals for myself is interesting. I have to find a way to make my goals achievable so I can keep myself motivated. However, I don’t want to make things too specific because I am more susceptible to disappointment in the smaller things. If I tell myself, I’m going to lose 30 lbs and I don’t do it, I’m going to be really depressed since I wasn’t able to do it. So here are my broad but achievable goals.
1. Finish my Education. I have one year left in my Masters and I have no plan on taking any more time for it. I knew that I was going to continue my education after I graduated last year but my life and career path took a different path than I thought. I am so grateful that I came back to ASU because I absolutely love what I’m learning and living and growing. It has been an amazing adventure I didn’t know that I was going on but I will be happy to be done. I am working around 30 hours each week in addition to going to school so all of my free time is basically doing papers and such. It can be difficult to manage so I will be extremely grateful for having my degree in hand so I can focus only on work. I can begin to figure out how I want to advance my career and begin to think long term on where I will be. At the moment, my only real focus is getting through the year and finish school. Now, I’m not actively planning on getting my doctorate so this will be the end of schooling in a row. So first goal is to get my Masters and finish 6 years of school in Arizona.
2. Get moving. I know my relationship with food and exercise is not the best as I eat whatever I want and I don’t exercise like ever. I want to begin to create a healthier relationship with my body and that starts by healing it. I don’t have a specific goal in mind but I know I want to eat healthier and begin to work out. I know that this is not going to be easy but I need to do this for my sanity. Even if it is eating a few healthier meals every week and going to the gym once or twice a week, it is a start. I have some ideas on how I can begin working out without going to the gym because I find that absolutely awful. I need to do something I enjoy and that does not always feel like working out. So keep an eye on that cause hopefully I will be able to write about new things that I try.
3. Go Outside. I spend so much time at my house, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. However, I will go two or three days without seeing another person. After a long day, I love being able to go home and not talk to anyone but isolating myself for days is incredibly unhealthy for me. I have talked about making friends and going outside and doing stuff. I need explore and live life. I can’t keep worrying about things and just live as much as I can. I’m only going to be young forever and this is my time to go and do everything I may not be able to do later. This is going to be my hardest goal but its the most important. It is going to be the critical piece of learning how to live with my anxiety and a happier life. I need to do this for me and no one else.
I don’t have many goals because the things I want to accomplish are not going to be easy and are significant life changes for me. I know that this year, I have to push past my insecurities and anxiety so I can begin to live a healthy life. I want to be happy and I believe that doing these things for myself will start me along that journey. So hopefully, I can keep you updated on these things as I begin my journey. So stay tuned.